Not What You Plan For
I had planned to post pictures of things I spun this week, strips I sewed together (only 2) and chatter about knitting and fabric and giveaways… However my heart is heavy and those things seem horribly inappropriate when measured against a backdrop of loss. My heart aches for Mothers and Fathers, Sisters and Brothers who have had their family broken and forever changed. My heartfelt prayers are with them now and will continue to be for them. In times like these people tweet about their anger and rage, they post about their disbelief and sadness, they stare in horrorstruck wonder at their tv screens. We can not process this. I don’t think our minds were meant to. Our hearts break, as they should. My eyes hurt from tears shed and want of more tears to give.
If you have been affected by this horror and lost a cherished one, I regret to my depths I can not be close enough to hug you. Even more I wish that I could remove this from your shoulders, giving you a moment to let you catch a breath unaffected by hurt. I wish I could give you the gift of yesterday to relive, time with someone you lost. If you have not lost a loved one or personal friend in this you have still been hurt by it, I know. Today is your gift with your loved ones. Cherish it in honor of those who are not in your fortunate position.
This is so little to offer and so poorly worded. Every inch of me hurts and wants to fix it. And the crushing weight is the reality that I can not. And so with you I weep. I do not look for a brighter sunrise. Today I believe is a time to acknowledge despair and grieve.